Deep Seal Page 5

  Her gorgeous face brightened. “The sunset is beautiful. Are you sure it’s safe?”

  “Yes.” I threaded our fingers. “Come on.” I sat in the grass and pulled her down at my side.

  “I can’t believe I am saying this... I’d like to see where this goes between us.”

  Her head fell against my shoulder and she gripped my bicep. “Are you ok with cooking our meals? I can’t cook remember.”

  My eyebrow rose as I glanced down at her. “I remember. And yes. I am fine with cooking.”

  She laughed.

  “Aiden, I’ve always enjoyed watching the sun rise and set.”

  “I guess we have that in common. No matter where I was in the world if I had the ability to watch the sun rise or set, I felt better about my day. Didn’t matter what I was about to do or where I was in the world.”

  She squeezed my arm. “Maybe that is something we can share. When the sun rises or sets wherever I am, know I’ll be thinking about you.”

  “I love that sentiment. Something that is ours no one can take from us.” I grinned.

  “Yup. But first things first, Mr. Grizzly. No more taking your sexual frustration out on me.”

  “Again, that was wrong of me.” I wrapped my arm around her and pressed my lips against hers.

  “That won’t happen again.”

  “Good. Can you feed me now?”

  I smiled. “Yes, I can do that. I think I have a case of beer in the fridge. Our limit is one a piece.”

  “Sounds good.”

  We walked toward the cabin.

  “Will you share a few more war stories?”

  “Sure, you little war junkie.” I laughed.

  ROCKING THE BLADE THROUGH the orange peppers, I glanced at Nadia. She nursed the cold bottle of beer.

  “It’s weird not checking my cell phone.”

  “We had to destroy it. Didn’t want to take any chances.”

  “Yeah, I understand. Even though my parents are on vacation, they might worry if they don’t hear from me by Wednesday.”

  I needed to lighten the mood. “Do you miss Boston?”

  Her lips curled upward. “I do. Nothing like watching the Celtics play or the Red Sox.”

  “Oh, so you like sports?”

  “I do. Don’t you?” She sipped the beer.

  “Yeah, I love baseball. A day after I returned to the States, I flew to New York to watch a Yankees game. I sat behind home plate.”

  “Wow, fantastic seats!”

  “Sitting in the stadium taking in the crowd. Hearing all the laughter surrounding me warmed my heart. I felt good about protecting this country from terrorism. In the seventh inning, they asked all the service men and women to stand. They thanked us for our service.”

  “Did you stand?”

  “I did.”

  Her smile lit up her face. “Good. Always let us express our gratitude. You risk your life every day for us.”

  She hopped off the bar stool and strolled around the counter. Nadia removed the knife from my hand and placed it on the counter and turned to me. She rested her hands on my chest.

  “I’ve had a crush on you for a long time.”

  My eyebrows rose.

  “I know I am asking an awful lot of a man like you. You’re afraid to be loved by a woman because you don’t think she can love you unconditionally. You think she will leave at the first sign of trouble. I want you to understand we can build a special life. We can do everything the way we want together. I am not saying it won’t be hard. I am stronger today than I was a few years back when I was admitted to rehab. I didn’t want anything good in my life. One day I decided to do better for me. I am resilient and won’t let anyone tear me down. I know for the first time in my life, I picked a good man. Your career path is dangerous. I am not naïve. I understand you could return to active duty and never return.”

  I clenched my fists. Her words cut deep because for the first time I’d understand how my men felt fighting for their country and in the back of their minds wondering if they’d ever see their loved ones again.

  “This is what I didn’t want.” I smoothed my hand over her wavy hair. “The pain of knowing you are at home worrying about me.”

  “Listen, at least you know I care. Don’t think about me worrying. Think about this day. The day you cooked are first romantic dinner of many.” She grinned.

  “I know you are sacrificing your life for me. Again, thank you. If we make it out of this mess alive. Promise, you’ll come over to my parents for dinner.”

  I squeezed my eyes with two fingers. “Yeah, I can agree to that.”

  She pulled me close until her soft lips met mine. Nadia slid her hands over my neck, deepening our kiss. She stepped back. “I want forever with you, Aiden Wilder. Whatever our forever looks like. I’ll be right back.” Her eyes glassed over.

  I wanted to follow her, but I gave her a moment alone.

  Forever, huh? The thought scared the shit out of me. I tried so hard not to allow my negative thoughts to manifest. Aiden, give yourself a shot at happiness.

  CHAPTER TEN

  AIDEN

  “My uncle said he hated Navy basic training. Was Navy SEALs training similar?” Nadia asked, cutting a sliver of grilled chicken, sitting next to me at the wooden kitchen counter.

  “Not at all. Waking up every day before sunrise after only sleeping four hours broke several guys.” I chugged my beer.

  “I still have calloused hands from climbing up and down the rope so many times during Hellweek.”

  Nadia grabbed my hand and traced her fingers over the rough skin.

  “Damn.”

  “Basic Underwater Demolition training to become a Navy SEAL was no picnic either, but it prepares you to become the best. Navy SEAL training is in a league of its own. Paddling in the surf late at night against rough freezing waves is one of the most mind-numbing task. Imagine holding an ice cube in your hand until it stings. That’s how cold the ocean feels.

  You have to dig deep in your mind to make it through every last task.” I took another swig of my beer.

  “Nothing makes you feel better than keeping your team safe and everyone returning from a mission.” I grabbed Nadia’s hand.

  “Admiral Cutner will send me on a new mission very soon. That was the deal I agreed to, so I could have a short leave. Honestly, I wanted nothing else to do with the Navy.”

  Her mouth dropped open.

  “When you have a special skill set like mine... SEALs aren’t ever done with war. There is always someone who wants to hurt the American people. Then the SEALs are called to handle the situation.”

  Nadia clutched my hand. “Have you ever thought about running... away?”

  I chuckled and released her hand. “Yup, for a split second before I arrived home, I thought, I should disappear. I’m trained to survive I could walk away and never be found. Maybe, I love what I do more than I was willing to let on. I’ve been a Sailor for ten years. Do you still want to move forward? With me?”

  “Aiden, you know better than anyone, none of us are promised tomorrow. I could make a left turn onto a street and end up in a car accident that takes my life.”

  My heart raced and my stomach bottomed out. For the first time I had someone in my life I cared about and damn sure didn’t want to lose her.

  “I am aware of the danger. If we had a family, I’d hope my parents and yours would love their grandchildren and willingly help if I was ever in need.”

  My brow rose. “A family?”

  “Aiden, it’s not about if I am ready for a life together. Are you?” she smirked. “Excuse me.” She walked into the bedroom.

  Telling her I couldn’t follow through with the possibility of us was on the tip of my tongue.

  My PTSD was kicking in. I snatched up the AK forty-seven then stalked out the front door.

  Breathe. Breathe, Aiden.

  I couldn’t let her see me like this. I stumbled through the dark woods. A tree branch to my lef
t shook.

  Someone’s coming.

  I raised my rifle eye level. Gawking through the scope. Sweat poured down my face. I blinked twice to focus.

  Slowly I side stepped between the trees. “Show your face. Don’t let me find you. I’ll blow your head off.”

  “Aiden!” my name echoed in my ears.

  “Aiden, it’s Nadia. Please don’t hurt me,” she cried.

  I peered to my left then right. “Nadia? Don’t...don’t come any closer.”

  Aiden, you have to protect her.

  “Nadia, I can’t see you. Duck behind a tree. The enemies are here.”

  “Aiden! Aiden, it’s only me. Come to me.” Her voice still echoed.

  I have to get out of my head. I shook my head, dropping on the side of the tree, I gripped the rifle.

  “No. No. Stay back. I can’t hurt you. Please turn back.” I couldn’t catch my breath.

  “No, I won’t leave you. Focus on my voice. Don’t run from what we are trying to build.” Her voice evened out. I closed my eyes.

  “Aiden.” Her voice was clear and present.

  A sense of calm washed over me.

  Soft hands squeezed my face. “Open your eyes and look at me.”

  My eyes flew open. “Nadia.”

  She smiled. “That’s right. Place the rifle on the ground.” I sat my weapon at my side.

  “Focus on me and breathe, Aiden.”

  Nadia straddled me. “Everything will be fine. I am not going anywhere. Ever.”

  I crushed her petite frame against mine, never wanting to let her go.

  “Nadia, sorry you had to see me like this.”

  Her soft eyes remained on mine. “All the fighting and blood shed caused at your hands brought this on. You have nothing to be sorry about. Aiden, you have to see a psychiatrist before you return to active duty.”

  “If my men knew I struggled with PTSD...”

  “They’d do what, Aiden? You carry the weight of the world on your shoulders. You brought so many Sailors back home to see their families. If they want the best Commander Wilder leading them into the next war, then they’d want you to seek help. I will be right there with you.”

  I crushed her lips. “I am so thankful for you.”

  ∞

  I PRESSED MY HANDS against my hair under the scolding shower. My breathing was back to normal thanks to Nadia. Placing my hands on the wall in front of me, I welcomed the water running down my skin. Felt good.

  “Aiden.”

  “Yeah?”

  “The kitchen is clean.”

  I turned off the water and opened the shower curtain. Nadia’s eyes widened and her hand flew over her mouth.

  “Oh, my god.” Her eyes were locked on my cock.

  “Could you pass me that towel please?”

  “What towel?” Her eyes were still focused on my dick.

  “The one to your left.”

  She blinked. “Oh yeah, that towel.” Nadia grabbed it and stepped closer.

  I retrieved the towel from her hand. She visibly swallowed.

  “So, really no sex for three years and you were planning to make that a forever plan?”

  I laughed, running the towel over my hair then chest.

  “Yeah, I was,” I stated, stepping out of the tub and onto the mat. I continued drying my body.

  She stepped back.

  I turned Nadia toward the mirror, clutched her waist, and walked forward.

  She licked her lips staring at us.

  I released her long enough to wrap the towel around my waist. My teeth clenched her neck.

  “Oh fuck,” she breathed. I caught her before she hit the floor.

  “Aiden,” she panted.

  “Hey, it’s ok, Nadia.”

  “Are you sure? I don’t want you to do anything you don’t want to.”

  “I’ve wanted you for a while now. That little robe you walked down the drive way in haunted my dreams for a long time.” I slid my big hands under her T-shirt, capturing her breasts.

  “Nadia, remove your jeans.” I sucked her earlobe.

  Her shaky fingers fiddled with the button. “I-I can’t.” She darted out of the bathroom.

  I stepped into the bedroom. Nadia sat on the bed staring out the window.

  “You might wake up tomorrow and change your mind. I’m trying to come to terms with that possibility. Neither of us have had sex in a long time. I don’t want it to be just sex. I know it wouldn’t be making love.” She dropped her head in her hand. “I’m rambling. I am so nervous. My big bad brooding neighbor is standing before me. I day dreamed we’d sit in your backyard, talk and drink beer.” Her gorgeous worried eyes gazed into mine.

  I chuckled. “So, it was actually a day dream?”

  “Yes, I’d stare into your backyard and imagine I was with you.”

  Nadia was so beautiful and perfect for me. I peeled the white bath sheet from my waist.

  She gasped as the towel fell to the floor. “Your body is a chiseled masterpiece.”

  Slowly she rose to her feet and pushed her tight jeans down her legs. She kicked them to the side. I tugged her fitted T-shirt over her head.

  “This is my first time seeing you naked. Two times you’ve seen my half-dressed body.” Her smile rose and fell.

  I smiled. “I want to see it all.”

  She unhooked her bra it fell midway down her arms. Nadia massaged my chest.

  “Nope, hands off until you're completely naked.”

  She placed her hand over her face.

  “I want to see those beautiful breasts and that soaked pussy.”

  She gasped and her eyes widened. Nadia allowed her bra to fall to the floor. “How do you know I’m wet?”

  “Baby, if you’ve day dreamed about us. I hope you were wet then and damn sure hope you are wet now. You have to be to take this big cock.” I stroked my shaft.

  She pulled her sexy lower lip into her mouth then stood on her tippy toes and pressed her lips against mine. “I am so wet for you, Aiden. I want you to touch my pussy and feel how wet I am.”

  Nadia peeled her dainty pink panties from her waist, over that round ass, and down her thick thighs. She stepped out of her panties and flicked them aside with her toe.

  “Aiden, touch me.”

  I slid my fingers within her wet folds. Nadia held my large biceps and moaned as her lips swept across my pecs. She stepped back and slid her hand up and down my long cock. Nadia leaned over and slid her tongue under the head of my dick. I dropped my head back.

  “That feels good, Nadia.”

  She sat on the bed and slipped her lips down my cock gagging as the tip hit the back of her throat. I tugged her hair.

  “Look at me, Nadia. I want to watch you swallow all of this big dick.”

  She kneaded her nipples as her head bobbed up and down.

  “That’s a good girl, hum while you suck my cock.”

  Her moans were heaven to my ears. So many times, in Yemen and other countries I had my dick sucked. There was a large box of condoms in our tent. Whenever the guys and I traveled into a town for a night of fun, we were ready.

  Nadia was right. I didn’t want our first time or any other time to be a quick anything. This was the woman who’d be mine. My woman.

  Never thought I’d see the day; I’d eat a woman’s pussy. Hope I wouldn’t fuck this up. I slid my cock out of her mouth, then tossed her on the bed.

  CHAPTER ELEVEN

  NADIA

  Aiden towered over me stroking his huge cock. I hoped he wouldn’t rip me apart. “Aiden, don’t hurt me.”

  His eyes softened. “I wouldn’t dare.”

  He intertwined our lips. Aiden sat back on his knees, grabbed my leg and kissed my calf muscle. “Your pussy will be the first I’ll taste.”

  “And it will be your last, Aiden.” My eyes narrowed.

  His eyes darkened. “Bet your sweet ass it will.”

  Aiden slid his tongue down my thigh, he widened my legs. His tongue
dipped into my hole.

  “Shit, Aiden.” My back arched as I tugged his hair. My ass rose off the bed, I pushed my pussy against his tongue again and again.

  “Fuck, Aiden, lick my clit.”

  His tongue swirled around my slippery knob. “Baby, I can’t hold on much... much longer,” I whimpered.

  “You taste so fucking good, Nadia.” The second my name fell out of his mouth, my body shuddered.

  He clamped my shaky legs down and continued assaulting my quivering hole with his tongue.

  “Oh god, baby. Oh fuck. I never came before.”

  “Good. I know you will always come for me. I want your pussy to squeeze all the cum from my cock.” His thick forearms laid on my stomach while he flicked my nipples.

  “I don’t want to lose you!” I cried. My hands flew over my mouth.

  “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to say that.” I shook my head, and the tears poured down my face.

  “I’m sorry.”

  His lips softly sucked my stomach. I was in heaven. I wasn’t sorry, but I knew he’d worry about me if he ran into trouble on a mission. I pulled him over me.

  “Aiden. I’m...” He pressed his finger against my lips.

  “It’s ok. I understand. You want to be with me.”

  “I want to be your woman and hopefully one day...” I closed my eyes.

  “My wife,” he whispered.

  My eyes popped open. “I want to only belong to you. Remembering the first time we made love will always stay with me. Shit, I’m moving too fast.”

  “Be quiet, baby.” He pinned my hands against the bed.

  I dropped my legs open.

  Aiden and I agreed we wouldn’t use protection. Neither of us had sex unprotected before. This was our special time together. One of many I hoped.

  “I thought you didn’t want to say we would make love.” He wiggled his eyebrows.

  “Aiden.”

  “Not to worry because if another man thought about touching you, I’d rip his head off.”

  “Aiden, that’s so sweet.”

  His eyes darkened. “Oh, I fucking mean that.”

  Aiden gripped his big cock and slid inside me inch by pleasurable inch. My smile was wide as the sky.